Friday, April 21, 2006

Shot Through The Heart....

The title for this post is an inspiration from a hit Bon Jovi song from the 80s..by the same name....and from the recent incidents in my life....

Rewind exactly 44 days.....i was in a similar situation as about 95% of the youth in the world...attracted to a PYT(pretty young thing)...felling butterflies in my tummy....getting a alcohol rivalling high every time i was with her....wanting to spend every possible moment with her...the works...sounds normal right?..it was...i thought it wasnt...i thought it was special...thats where i made a mistake...

There are always positives and negetives to any relationship....as long the positives comprehensively outweigh the negetives...your okay....but as the negetives start to build up...the relationship starts going south...We cant blame any one person in relationship for not making it work...its always both ways....both are right in their own way...and wrong as well....so how do we pinpoint who is to blame for a failed relationship?....Truth is, we dont!...The blame game doesnt help anyone....flared tempers, unintentional abuse made in anger, slurs bout charachters..all this is stuff to vent your frustration for not being able to make it work...it is always better to part on good terms....yes..it hurts...It hurts like hell....but atleast you have peace of mind that you didnt hurt your partner with abuse that you dont really mean....

The last 44 days have been one of the best in my life....she and I shared some great times together.....discovered new things....met a great girl.....talked away to glory at the wee hours of the night....long bike rides....double dating with my friends....hanging out with each others friends and relatives....i really thought i had something special....but never mind....To love is inevitable....To maintain it...is destiny...I dont blame her for what has happened....she is a great girl...friendly, loyal and caring...but the difference is our ages was what probably made it difficult...nevertheless...I will always look upon this time of life and have a warm feeling in my heart....It was bliss while it lasted!!

I have a friend....no..shes my hero....my confidant....one my closest buddies...a certain Mrs. AW...she made me realise quite a few things about what i did wrong....and what i should do now....the right thing!...Thanks A!..This ones for you!....

As a final comment i would like to post 4 lines from a song which is very apt for the kind of state iam in today...

"Juda hoke bhi..Tu mujhmen kahin baki hai....Palkon main banke aasun...Tu chali aati hai.." - Jal (2005) in their song Aadat...

2 comments:

Ads said...

:) IS this to reconfirm it to yourself?? They say if you p[en down a certain thought it gets engraved twice in your mind!! Good work kiddo!!

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